School Pictures

I was a little slow at getting these back to school pictures up on here... Aiden just loves school, he thinks he is a big kid everyday. Not too much is going on here. I am so excited my mom is coming out at the end of this month and then we are going home for a few days in October. My parents really miss the kids, my dad calls Aiden and they do this bear growl to each other on the phone. So now in school, Aiden goes around growling like a bear to the teachers and kids... I had to explain how that came about. He is really talking more too.. he came up to me the other day and gave me hug and he goes "A BIG hug mom"... I was like speechless because his speech has been somewhat slow but it is picking up all the time. He has advanced so far since last year it is so amazing.

Taylor and Aiden are funny together. For the longest time she kind of picked up on him (like sisters do), well now he is figuring out what makes her yell. Every morning when they are sitting together I hear some yelling and it is Aiden sticking his tongue out with food on it and showing Taylor. She gets so grossed out... kids, it doesn't matter what country you come from they are all the same.

Catching Up...

It has been awhile since I blogged so I thought I might start back at it. We have been busy with school starting here so early (August 12th). It has been an adjustment to say the least for Taylor with school but we are praying everything works out. I think she misses her friends and teachers from back home - she also says that school is way to easy for her right now. So, I have been praying about what should I do?? I think I may start supplementing her with homeschool and see how that goes. It is hard knowing what to do with your kids sometimes. You would think I would know what to do since I went to school for teaching - but it is so different when it is your kid.

Aiden started his "special" preschool also. He loves it. It is through the school district and he gets speech therapy and alot of one on one attention. He thinks he is big stuff now. Everyone says, "He is so delightful"... He is the first one out of bed in the morning and then he stands over Taylor telling her she needs to get up... or should I say yelling at her. It is so funny to hear this 20 pound kid yelling at his big sister to get moving.

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I just want to say, my blog is my way to express myself. Maybe sometimes I "express" myself to much and I apologize for offending anyone. I guess when I get hurt or let down I let it fester and that isn't always a good thing. I know my blog has helped other people who have gone through something similar and I know it has helped me. It is real, it is what happens in life. Yes well, keep pressing on right?

Well enough with all that... I am going to be trying to update more and also get back into my business stuff. I have also treaded back into the exercise routine bit again. We have been biking and walking everyday. Taylor loves it too! I sure miss everyone back East, hope you are doing well! Look out for my new blog I will be creating.

I was able to get these pictures from my friend Angela with Lady Bugs N Love. These pictures are so priceless. They are pictures of Sun Fen with the package Taylor sent her and a cake we sent. We sent a few things for her foster family and friends as well. I hope they liked them. It was great to see how happy she seemed. I am so thankful for these pictures as many adoptive parents aren't able to get updates on their kids (or they get one or two pictures)

I am starting the paperwork all over again and it is quite daunting here in Illinois. They have an extra step that will delay my paperwork an extra month. But I have to look at the whole picture and know this is just part of the process. These pictures really help us see the big picture as to why we are doing what we are doing.

Taylor leaving for camp...

Taylor left for "Kids Kamp" today with some kids she will be going to school/church with. She was so excited... the only thing is, when I was getting her bag out of my car I said, "Taylor, I love you and am going to miss you". She goes, "I love you to, but can you only say that once and not when we get inside?"... I was like, "What?"... my little girl is growing up. It seems like she will have a great time with these little girls. It took her two minutes to meet some friends. Isn't it great to be a little one with no inhibitions about people?

Awesome Video on China's Waiting Children

Taylors Music Drama Camp

Well, it was Taylor's first week in Illinois and she went to a great music/drama camp at a local church. Last night we went to see the program and it was great. It is amazing to think Taylor and another girl led a song in front of about 200 people, not knowing anyone. Can you tell I am a proud parent? It was a great show, Chad made it back from Delaware with 5 minutes to spare! Taylor was so elated her dad was going to see her "solo" (even thought she sang with another girl).

A new day here in Illinois..

It is Friday here and we are excited Chad is coming back today. A week TDY is nothing compared to 4 or 6 months but it is nice he is coming back. I need some more pictures hung up in the house (ha ha). Taylor has been going to a drama/music camp at a local church here and tonight she has a program for it. So that is our exciting Friday night excursion. I love to see her praising God, it always warms my heart. Aiden is dying to go but he has to wait one more year.

Life here is going pretty good. It has been a good transition. I appreciate all the warm thoughts yesterday and allowing me to express my thoughts on here and not think I am crazy. You know I always think Chad is a big strong guy and it is just as hard on him on Chase's day. He wrote a little tribute on Chases site and it made me realize he still hurts too. How can you not right? I think what really hurts is when you think some people would be there for you and aren't, but I guess that is par for the course for us.. we just keep pressing on as a family. I really have to just concentrate on us or I would go crazy with all that, and pray.

So now off to do a whirlwind cleaning job on our house. If anyone knows Chad you know how tidy he is... So I guess that pile of wash better get done! I can be such a procrastanator at times. Hope you all have a great weekend. I am thinking we may take in the zoo or something like that.

Remembering Chase, and celebrating what his life has meant..

Well, today is that dreadful day that I found out 2 years ago that Chase died, 38 weeks 8lbs 5 oz. There still is not an hour in the day that goes by that I don't think of Chase. I know for someone who is looking in they may think, "Gee, she should be over it by now"... I might have been one of those people to before this happened to me, but a mother never gets over losing a child. Every birthday, or holiday you think gee someone is missing... Someone once said to me the bleeding stops but you always have the scar that is so true. But I do have to say that thank God that he has given me faith to move on and has supplied so many blessings to me and my family. Without God, where would I be? I am not quite sure I would want to answer that...

Faith is hope... and that has been my motto ever since this has happened. Hope is what lets us go on when we think we can't any more. I really believe that God has a reason for letting something like this happen. Maybe a wake up call to do something good with our lives, not to take life for granted. Before this, our family was easy sailing, no problems... then July 16, 2007 hit and life changed forever. It changed for many in our family, we were shaken to the core. I still thank my family for all they have done, and my precious husband who had to hear the news in Iraq...

I know not many people like to hear or even talk about sad news, especially the death of a child, it is easier just not to say anything... but for us we like to know that people have remembered, that Chase had lived and is still living. There is nothing wrong with talking about what could have been and sharing our story. Because out of this story has come a greater story yet, one of continuing love no matter what happens.

Without our tragedy we would not have the blessings we have now. I am so thankful for my precious daughter who is wise beyond her years. She tells me all the time, "I have 2 brothers, one in heaven and one on earth"... and the one in heaven went up through the clouds and is keeping an eye on me... I truly believe that too, she still says things that take my breath away. And my precious little China blessing Aiden... I can't say enough good things about him. He truly is an angel from above, he is the kindest, happiest little guy. And because of AIDEN and our trip to China we always have a heart for these kids in China.... Chad and I have had it on our hearts to adopt one more

I am so thankful for all of God's gifts he has given to us. We might not always know the why of things but I just have to believe that there is a bigger picture out there that we don't know about.

Finally here and settling in...

Just thought I would share a few pictures of our house as we are getting it together It has been a whirlwind of a week. We moved into our house last Thursday and have unpacked over 16000 pounds of household goods, thanks to Chad and his "we got to get this done" encouragment. Seriously, I probably needed it though... when the movers left and we had all these boxes filling our floors I could have died but we really knocked things out pretty fast.

Our house is great, we have lots of room. Taylor and Aiden are with my mother in law right now so we have had time to get things organized without them. I am really anxious for them to see their new place. We tried to make it special for them. Taylor is already signed up for a music/drama camp next week and soccer starting in Fall. Sports is really big out here which will be great for our family.

How is the midwest compared to NJ? Well, much slower that is for sure but I guess that is a good thing (at times). I think it will be a good 3 years, people seem to be happy here. St. Louis is 12 minutes from here so that is a great thing as well.
My friend Maggie has taken me out to the Cheesecake Factory and shopping... what more could a girl as for!

Well, I hope to put more on here soon and start blogging again. I need to get my business up and running. Hope you are doing well! Don't mind the messy pictures compared to 2 days ago our house is a palace. Hopefully in the next week things will be totally put in their places. Miss you all!