Sunday, August 31, 2008
Well, I have been up since 1AM China time. I am having a rough time with the time change. It is 12 hours difference here and by 5PM Taylor and I have been really tired. So now I am sitting here this morning just thinking about what today holds for us. In the adoption world, today is called, "Gotcha Day", meaning the day we get our child. The feelings I have about today are so vast.
We started this process 2 and a half years ago and as most of you know alot of things have happened in that time frame, so it makes today even more emotional. Emotional because of thinking about the first time we saw Aiden's picture - which was September 23rd and then on September 24th (my birthday) Chad said lets get him. Then came the 6 month process of getting our homestudy done, this included mountains of clearances and paperwork. I could go on and on, but I just feel so grateful that today is here.
I can't wait to see him for the first time. It seems like we know him from the pictures we have been blessed to get, but yet we really don't yet. I can't wait to see Taylor and how she will react to him. She wanted me to buy her a traditional Chinese dress, so we did. I told her it was for a special occasion probably a picture day with Aiden. She goes to me, "Well, I want to wear it Monday when we get him. Don't you think that will be a special occasion? I will no longer be an only child and Aiden won't be in an orphanage".... she has a way of putting things.
I just want Aiden to feel loved and special, knowing that we chose him and he was so wanted. I think of my little angel up above and wondering if he is looking down and seeing what is about to transpire. Without Chase we would not be getting Aiden... I do believe all things happen for a reason even being as hard as that may be to understand.
I just can't even put into words how we are feeling. It is just so emotional that is all I know. I hope I can hold it together in a few hours but who knows! Miss you guys and wish you were here!
Taylor just woke up (it is 5AM) and she yells out in the darkness, "MOM, today is the day. Aiden will be so happy today"