Sunday, August 31, 2008

Reflecting....



Well, I have been up since 1AM China time. I am having a rough time with the time change. It is 12 hours difference here and by 5PM Taylor and I have been really tired. So now I am sitting here this morning just thinking about what today holds for us. In the adoption world, today is called, "Gotcha Day", meaning the day we get our child. The feelings I have about today are so vast.

We started this process 2 and a half years ago and as most of you know alot of things have happened in that time frame, so it makes today even more emotional. Emotional because of thinking about the first time we saw Aiden's picture - which was September 23rd and then on September 24th (my birthday) Chad said lets get him. Then came the 6 month process of getting our homestudy done, this included mountains of clearances and paperwork. I could go on and on, but I just feel so grateful that today is here.

I can't wait to see him for the first time. It seems like we know him from the pictures we have been blessed to get, but yet we really don't yet. I can't wait to see Taylor and how she will react to him. She wanted me to buy her a traditional Chinese dress, so we did. I told her it was for a special occasion probably a picture day with Aiden. She goes to me, "Well, I want to wear it Monday when we get him. Don't you think that will be a special occasion? I will no longer be an only child and Aiden won't be in an orphanage".... she has a way of putting things.

I just want Aiden to feel loved and special, knowing that we chose him and he was so wanted. I think of my little angel up above and wondering if he is looking down and seeing what is about to transpire. Without Chase we would not be getting Aiden... I do believe all things happen for a reason even being as hard as that may be to understand.

I just can't even put into words how we are feeling. It is just so emotional that is all I know. I hope I can hold it together in a few hours but who knows! Miss you guys and wish you were here!

Taylor just woke up (it is 5AM) and she yells out in the darkness, "MOM, today is the day. Aiden will be so happy today"

8 comments:

Jan said...

Reading and seeing your photo's brings back some many memories for us! In a few LONG hours you will be holding Aiden and he will be so lucky to be blessed with such a wonderful family. God works wonders in our lives. I can't wait to see the photo's. Sending our love your way. Jan

Megan said...

HI you guys!!!! I'm am SO EXCITED for you. I am so excited to have another nephew. I can't wait to see him!!! And Taylor of course. Love the pictures. Looks like you guys are having a really good time. Can't wait to see more with the little one. Take care you guys. Hopefully we'll see you in a couple of weeks.
Love Adam and Megan

connie said...

Oh, Heidi, what a day of reflection for you. I know it's packed with emotion, and I hope the overriding one is happiness. (((Hugs))) to you, my friend.

Stephanie said...

Oh my word! I can't believe the time is here--finally! I'm so excited for you! Can't wait to hear all about the first meeting with Aiden. Look forward to seeing more pics. Praying for all of you and that the tansition will be smooth.

Erin said...

I am too happy to read your blog right now! How wonderful that you are finally meeting Aiden...He is very lucky to have such a beautiful, smart, and loving big sister. Taylor seems like a doll, so sweet.

Enjoy this special time,
Erin
another BAAS mom
Waiting for Maia Cai
www.nosecondway.blogspot.com

Our House of Five said...

I am so excited for you! The rush of emotions is something to cling to and treasure! Wishing you a day filled with all the joy you deserve and then some!

Tracy

jon-n-tracey said...

wow! so exciting! we just caught up on your trip so far. your pics and words bring us right back to Shamien Island, where we were just 1 year ago. Great job documenting your trip! jon and tracey

Jodie Poulsen said...

Heidi, You have been on my mind all day. I am feeling your emotions all over from our day meeting Zian.I cant keep smiling for you all. Enjoy every moment!!!Dreams do come true. Jo Pouslen